Crossroads

I need to get some things off my chest. First, I suppose I’ll give an update. My office is still a mess and I haven’t been using it much. I keep telling myself that I’ll get back in there and start organizing it and finishing up the projects I outlined in the previous post but I need to get my websites done first.

The websites are going well and I should have them done by the end of August. I’m terrified that Amazon will find something wrong with them and close my account. Their TOS are so ambiguous that it’s hard to know if I’m doing something wrong and they change all the time which also makes it difficult to follow. I really need a 2nd income source. Again, I have to wait until I get my current websites down before I start a new project.

As for my health, I’m happy and proud to say that I have lost 25 lbs since my last post. I’m almost under 200 lbs. Unfortunately, I still have 50 lbs to lose to get to goal. Losing 25 lbs has been a struggle but I’ve kept with it and worked hard. I’m probably going to have to work even harder to lose the next 25 lbs. Not sure I’m up for it but I’ll try.

The main reason I wanted to write this post is that I’m confused about where my life is going. I’m 33, almost 34, years old. I’ve wanted to be a mom since I could remember. I remember in high school, sitting on the floor of the library and telling my best friend that I wanted to have at least 6 kids. I’m getting older and I can hear the clock ticking – loudly. I want to fall in love with an amazing man but I have no idea how to do that. I’ve never dated before. I’ve never been in a relationship. I don’t know how to be in a relationship. It terrifies me. But I’m going to have to learn if I want to have kids. I could have kids on my own as a single mother but that terrifies me as well. I want my kids to have 2 parents who love each other to look up to. I grew up with two amazing parents who have been together for 30 years and love each other so much. I probably wouldn’t mind having kids on my own if my income was more stable or if I were a homeowner. Also, I want to have kids with my future husband. I want to do it together as a team. I feel like the whole experience would be better with a husband there to hold my hand at the ultrasound or who will help pick out furniture for the nursery.

I’ll get back to the whole family and baby thing but I’m having a hard time deciding where to live. I would love to move to Florida but I’ve lived in MN my entire life and I feel like FL is so far away. I love the politics, the places and the people of Minnesota. We are a unique state and there are so many things I love about it. Except I hate the winters. That’s one thing I can’t stand – which is why I want to move to Florida. The plan was that I was going to move to Florida in the next year or two and my parents were going to retire and move to Florida with me. However, my mom just got a promotion at work and decided that she probably won’t retire for at least 5 years. My parents want to move closer to my mom’s work so her commute is shorter. Do I stay in this area or do I move to Florida by myself? I can’t decide. Then I decided to do some research and got a crazy idea in my head…

Full-time RVing! I love to travel and I especially love to camp. There are so many places in the country I have never been to such as Yosemite, San Fransisco, Yellowstone, New York City, etc. Buying an small RV and a small car to pull it would be much cheaper than buying a house. There are plenty of campgrounds that are cheap and don’t cost much to stay at. I could drive around and see the country with my dog. There are plenty of RV clubs and organizations for single women RVers so I could probably make some friends which would help with the loneliness.  However, camping, heck driving cross-country by myself sounds terrifying. Especially if I end up at a campground alone. Or what if I get a flat tire or have engine trouble. I would love to be a full-time RVer but only with a partner. Which brings me back to the whole husband and family thing. I would rather date and eventually start a family in a stable home.

So, can I have it both – an RVing lifestyle and a stable home? I think I could. That doesn’t really answer the question of where I should live – Minnesota or Florida – but it makes it a little easier. Being a snowbird sounds really appealing. I could buy a house in Florida and then during the summer months, bring my camper up to Minnesota and go camping for 3-6 months – or travel the country. Or I could buy a house in Minnesota and travel during the winter – although that would be more difficult since most of the country is covered in snow & ice in the winter. Plus, Florida has no income tax which would make it a cheaper state to live in.

I didn’t think writing this post would be very helpful but it actually has. Buying a house in Florida to live in during the winter and then camping/traveling in the summer sounds like a great compromise. And, who knows, maybe I’ll meet a guy who loves to camp/travel as much as I do and we can travel around the country together.

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2 Years!

Has it really been 2 years since I last posted? Wow, time has sure flown by quick. I suppose I’ll post a quick update. There’s actually another post I’d like to make but I’ll post an update first.

Okay, so I’m not using my office yet. LOL! I’m using it more than I did when I made my last post but still, not as much as I would like. Here is what I’ve done to my office since my last post:

  • I replaced the carpet with hardwood vinyl tiles. They look great!
  • I sanded down the scratched up varnish on my desk and painted the desk white.
  • I added a piece of clear plexiglass to the top of the desk to prevent scratching.
  • I purchased a new computer and printer for the office. I love them both. The computer is a white HP all-in-one and the printer is a white Canon.
  • I purchased a device for the TV in my office that lets me watch cable without having to add a TV to the cable bill (the cable company adds $5 extra for each TV).
  • I went through the closet in my office and made a pile of stuff to keep, stuff to sell and stuff to give away.
  • I listed the stuff to sell on eBay. Half of the stuff sold. I’m really hoping the rest of the stuff sells within the next month.

Things I still need to do include buying a new TV and hanging it on the wall across from my desk, taking a pile of stuff to Goodwill or the Salvation Army, getting rid of the empty boxes (used for shipping the stuff I’m selling on eBay), finding a place to store my CDs, purchasing a display case for my thimble collection, purchasing storage albums for my postcard collection, reupholstering my wooden chair, purchasing a footstool/ottoman and reupholstering it to match the wooden chair, repainting my side table, purchasing a new desk chair, organizing my desk drawers with drawer organizers, organizing my new file cabinet, setting up a recycle/trash station, repainting my old dresser and turning it into a printer stand, hanging pictures on the wall and, finally, organizing/decorating the shelves in the closet.

As far as my health, I’ve gained a lot of weight in the past 6 months. I’d say almost 30 lbs. I just can’t stick to a diet. I try and can be successful for about a week but then I just go back to my old habits. I need to do something about this but I don’t know what.

As far as money and bills, I got 2 of my student loans paid off and I have about $1k in an emergency fund. I’m currently saving for a new house and for a vacation I have planned for the beginning of next year. I am planning on moving to Florida sometime either next year or the year after so I’ll be saving for that after I get my vacation fund complete.

I guess that’s all for now. My websites are doing great and I plan on posting something about that coming up here.

 

All Talk

Apparently, I make plans and don’t follow through. It’s been a while since my last post and I don’t even remember making half those plans – a chart for the bathroom, really? Anyways, I’m doing pretty good. I’m managing to plan out my meals every day and I’ve already lost 7 lbs. I would like to exercise more often but I hate to exercise. Eventually I’ll start exercising again. My goal is to be down 10 lbs by Christmas. I should make it if I don’t eat all the cookies my mom baked the other day.

The main reason for this post is that I need to get some ideas out of my head and I figure that they would make more sense if I write them out.

I really want to start using my office again. I feel lazy and unmotivated working in the living room. Plus, there are way too many distractions in the living room. The reason I haven’t been using my office is because there is carpet on the floor in the office and my dog loves to chew on it. She gets into everything – steals mail, chews on cords, digs holes in furniture, etc. She also likes to sleep on my lap while I’m working. When I sit at my desk in my office, she doesn’t fit on my lap. I just find it easier to use my laptop while sitting in the recliner in the living room and then she can sleep on my lap.

In order to use my office again, I would need to get rid of the carpet, put away everything I don’t want my dog to destroy and get my dog a bed of some sort for her to sleep on. First of all, I would like to replace the carpet with vinyl tiles that look like hardwood. It would cost around $300. Unfortunately, I’m completely broke right now plus I haven’t done my X-mas shopping yet and my dog is almost out of food ($40/bag). I would like to get rid of the carpet and then wait on the vinyl tiles but my mom doesn’t want me to get rid of the carpet until I can afford the tiles – “Don’t destroy the house until you are ready to put it back together”, she says. Second of all, I would like to install clear sliding doors on my closet. Right now, there are no doors on the closet which I love because my desk chair is right next to the closet and I can easily see everything and just reach over and grab what I need. Plus, the room looks bigger and more open without closet doors. Clear doors would keep the dog out of my stuff but I’ll still be able to see what is in there and sliding doors would allow me to just slide the door open and grab what I need. However, I can’t find clear, sliding closet doors anywhere and I have no idea how much they would cost. Finally, as far as a dog bed goes, my dog has destroyed any and all dog beds I have gotten her. She loves to sleep in my recliner, even when I’m not sitting in it. There is already a recliner in my office but it is hard and uncomfortable. I could probably switch the two recliners – move my blue recliner to my office and move my leather recliner to the living room. That way, my dog could sleep in my recliner while I work and then I could use my leather recliner while watching TV upstairs (I think once the leather gets softer, it will get more comfortable to sit in).

So, those are my plans. I just need some money and hard work to get them into place. Once I get a new floor, get my closet closed off and get a comfortable place for my dog to sleep, then I can start working in my office again. Like I said before, I feel a lot more motivated to work when I’m in my office. When I work in the living room, all I want to do is play Candy Crush and comment on Facebook/Twitter posts.

I think I’m done rambling. Here are some of my goals for today:

  • Get dressed
  • Finish drying towels and put away
  • Clean bathroom – Not sure how to get this and the task below done with the dog following me around everywhere
  • Organize bathroom
  • Make supper

A Better Plan – Plus an Update

I realize that I haven’t updated this blog in almost 2 months but I’ve just been so busy. I’m actually overwhelmed by everything I need to do that I kind of shut down and don’t do anything. Lately, I’ve been staying up way too late at night, then getting up early in the morning. I’m tired all day and feel so lazy and like I have no energy to get anything done. Something needs to change.

The first thing I’m going to do is make a chart to put on the back of my bathroom door. The chart will list out everything I need to do that morning or evening in the bathroom. I’m a woman who wants to look better and I have a lot of stuff to do to in the bathroom to get ready for the day or to get ready for bed at night. For example, besides the obvious stuff like brushing my teeth or hair, I also need to remember to wash my face with cleanser, wipe face with toner, apply serum, apply eye cream, apply moisturizer, apply sunscreen, shape eyebrows, pluck dark chin hairs (I unfortunately have a lot of these), put on lip balm, apply deodorant, spritz some perfume and trim nails. That’s just some of the stuff I need to remember to do in the morning. Right now, I’m lucky if I remember to brush my teeth.

The second thing I’m going to do is go to bed earlier at night but also get up earlier in the morning. I’m not going to get up too much earlier than I do now since I want to get more sleep but I would like to get up before my dog gets up and take a shower, get dressed and get my morning bathroom stuff done. Once my dog is awake, she follows me around and makes it just about impossible to get anything done. If I can get a lot done before she wakes up, I’ll already have a head start on the day.

For now, those are the two things I’m going to focus on. Eventually, I’d like to exercise every morning, plan out my meals, get chores done before my parents get home from work as well as get my websites up and running. I don’t want to overwhelm myself by doing too much at one time but I should be able to get these two goals turned into a habit by the end of November. I’m going to spend the rest of today making a bathroom chart.

Rest of this Week

This is going to be a busy week. It’s only Monday and I’m already overwhelmed. On Wednesday night, I’m going to see the Back to the Future trilogy at the movie theater. You know, in honor of the day they travel to the future in Back to the Future III. I’m going to the theater alone and I’m already stressing about it. I bought my ticket online but I have to pick it up in person at the theater. Supposedly, they have an automatic ticket machine so I’m hoping I won’t have to wait in line and try to explain to someone that I bought my ticket online and need to pick it up and then have to show an ID or credit card, etc. I’m hoping I can go up to the machine, punch in my confirmation number and it will print me a ticket. I’m not sure what time to get there either. The movie starts at 4:30. I was thinking I’d get there 45-minutes early which would be 3:45, however, if it isn’t a popular movie, I don’t want to sit alone in an empty theater for 45-minutes, especially since I’m going to be seeing 3 movies which is a lot of sitting time already. I’m thinking that I will show up 45 minutes early and print my ticket, then go shopping in the mall for 30 minutes or so, depending on how many people are in line at the theater. Before I even get to the mall, I need to stop at the pet store and buy some dog food and a Halloween costume for my dog. Then I’d like to do some clothes shopping at Shopko, Target and/or Kohl’s. I suppose I’ll give myself 45-minutes for the pet store and clothes shopping. I’m not sure if that will be enough time though. Another thing I need to think about is that my parents won’t get home from work until 5PM so my dog will be alone from the time I leave until then. I don’t want her to be alone for very long. It’s a 30 minute drive to town. If I get to the theater 45-minutes early, 3:45PM, spend 45-minutes before that shopping, 3:00PM, then I would have to leave the house by 2:30PM. That means my dog would be home alone for 2 1/2 hours. I don’t really want to leave her alone for that long but I think she would be okay, especially if I exercise her a lot before-hand.

Before Wednesday, I need to print off any coupons I need for the pet store, clothing stores or the mall. I’ll also need to print a copy of my confirmation number for my movie tickets. Before I leave, I need to get stuff ready for my dog’s obedience class. My parents are reluctantly taking her to her class that night.

On a side-note, I hate my dog’s obedience class. She already knows everything they are teaching us in class and, of course, she doesn’t do any of it in class because there are so many distractions. The instructor talks down to me like I don’t know what I’m doing. I want to tell her, “My dog already knows how to do this. She’s just distracted right now. You don’t need to tell me what I’m doing wrong, bitch!” Only 3 classes left. I can’t wait!

Another thing happening this week is my grandpa is very sick. He can’t even get out of bed any more and has to be hand-fed. He is in a nursing home 6-hours away from here so my parents are going to go visit him on Thursday night after they get off of work and they are going to stay with him for the weekend (they are spending Thursday, Friday and Saturday night at a hotel). Since I can’t go visit him (I don’t have anyone to watch my dog), I really want to do something for my grandpa to cheer him up but I don’t know what. I would like to make him cookies or something but I don’t know if he’s on a special diet or what he’s allowed to have. I have until Thursday to come up with something.

Sorry this blog post was so long and all over the place. Hopefully my next post will make more sense. 🙂

Update and To-Do List – September 1, 2015

Hello to all my readers out there (I’m probably talking to myself, lol)! I haven’t left but I’ve been extremely lazy lately which is why I haven’t posted a to-do list in a few weeks. On Saturday, I got so fed up with my laptop that I went online and bought a new one. I picked it up in the store that afternoon. My old laptop was a Samsung Ativ Book 9 Plus and it was just one problem after another. I wish I had never bought it. Not only that but I paid more for that Samsung than I’ve paid for any other laptop in my entire life. Needless to say, I’ll be selling the piece of crap. The main problem with it, besides all the little stuff that was driving me crazy, was that the power cord would charge the battery randomly. Some days, it wouldn’t even charge at all and I’d end up with a dead computer in an hour (the battery life sucked really bad).

I love, love, love my new laptop – an HP Spectre x360. So far, there is nothing to complain about. The trackpad is taking a while to get used to but it is nowhere near as bad as the trackpad on the Samsung. The battery life is awesome with this HP, the charger actually works, I can use the keyboard without making a bunch of spelling errors, the screen doesn’t shrink letters so much that I can’t read them and this computer feels much lighter than the Samsung, although I think they weight the same. Plus, the HP doesn’t get ugly fingerprints all over it the minute I touch it, unlike the Samsung which is a fingerprint magnet.

I’ve spent the last two days moving files, programs and settings from the old laptop to the new one. The only thing I have left is to install Adobe Create Suite. Unfortunately, my puppy got the installation CD and scratched the heck out of it. I can download the files I need from the Adobe website but the files are huge so it will take a few days to download them.

My parents computers are extremely out-of-date so I’ve been trying to update them over the past few days as well. I need to install Windows 10 on my dad’s desktop and then figure out why the internet adapter doesn’t work. I already installed Windows 10 once and the adapter wouldn’t work so I had to restore Windows 7. I think I know what I need to do to get the adapter working. My dad deleted the Windows 10 installation files so I need to download them again. That will also take a few days to download, especially since I’m already downloading the Adobe Creative Suite files.

I think my mom’s laptop is on its last breath but I have an old HP laptop that works great, just a little heavy, so I’m going to transfer her files to that computer and then sell her current one. I could probably get more money by selling the HP but my mom needs a laptop and I don’t think the one she is using now is going to last much longer. It’s a laptop I got in college over 10 years ago. I’m surprised it is still working. I should still be able to get $50 or so for it on eBay. Someone might want it for parts or to give their kids to mess around with. So, yeah, it’s taking forever to get the files transferred from mom’s old computer to her new old computer. It will probably take all day to get it done. Then I need to update the old computer, do a clean install of Windows 10/wipe files from the hard drive and then get it listed on eBay. I also need to finish uploading some files from my Samsung, do a system restore/wipe my files off the hard drive and list it on eBay.

As you can see, I have a lot of stuff to do. On top of that, I need to wash towels, wash clothes, clean my bathroom, wash dishes, vacuum the floors and I’d like to publish one article on each of the 20 websites I own. I better get started…

Work Goals

  • Find intro/thumbnail pictures for websites #11 & #10
  • Publish one article on each website – 0/17

Nonwork Goals

  • Download Windows 10 – Dad’s desktop – In Progress 2% Complete
  • Install Windows 10 – Dad’s desktop
  • Search for driver for internet adapter – Dad’s desktop
  • Transfer all files – Mom’s old laptop to new old laptop – Done!
  • Download Adobe Creative Suite 5 installation files – Put On HoldCurrently downloading too much stuff and don’t want internet to slow down too much
  • Put new old laptop in mom’s office and hook up external mouse – Done!
  • Wash clothes – Done!
  • Wash towels – In Progress
  • Dry clothes – In Progress
  • Fold clothes
  • Dry towels
  • Put clothes away
  • Get dressed
  • Fold towels
  • Put towels away
  • Empty dishwasher – Done!
  • Fill dishwasher and start
  • Wash any dishes that don’t fit in dishwasher
  • Vacuum bathroom
  • Clean bathroom
  • Vacuum upstairs floors
  • Take puppy for long walk
  • Make supper

To-Do List – August 11, 2015

Today’s Motivational Quote: A goal is a dream with a deadline. ~Napoleon Hill

I haven’t posted a to-do list in a while. Mostly because I’ve been so focused on work and catching up on my sleep that I haven’t had much time for other things. I have a lot of non-work stuff to do today so I thought I’d post a to-do list to keep me on track.

Work Goals

  • Finish HTML for website #7 – Done!
  • Finish HTML for website #6

Nonwork Goals

  • Shower – Done!
  • Vacuum floors
  • Clean bathroom
    • Vacuum floors
    • Take out trash – Done!
    • Wash sink
    • Clean toilet
    • Clean bathtub
    • Wash mirror
  • Use laser hair removal machine on legs, arms and face – Done!
  • Take multivitamin – Done!
  • Make menu for today (1200-1500 calories) – Done!
  • Workout 15 minutes
  • Take Remington for long walk
  • Find one new trick to teach Remington
  • Make supper
  • Laundry – In Progress

To-Do List – August 5, 2015

Today’s Motivational Quote: What you do today can improve all your tomorrows. ~Ralph Marston

I didn’t mean to wait so long to post my to-do list for today. It’s already 3 in the afternoon and I haven’t gotten anything done. Yesterday, my brother, SIL and nephew stopped by much early than I expected and they stayed here much later than I expected. This messed up my schedule and I didn’t get much done. I was in the middle of using my Flash&Go when they arrived so I only got one leg done (right leg).

One thing that’s bugging me is related to my business. I own an internet marketing company and I pretty much build websites and then businesses will pay me to advertise on my websites. It’s a really cool job that pays a lot once you get everything set up. I’m still in the set-up phase for about 30 different websites. Each website needs at least 50 articles posted to get traffic and I need traffic before I can start contacting businesses about advertising opportunities. Once the websites are set-up, I can pretty much forget about them. Maybe post an article or two each month to keep them up to date but the hard work is getting the sites set up. I was hoping to get the HTML for all articles on all 30 websites completed by the end of July and then find thumbnail pictures for all articles in August. In September, I’m planning on publishing one article to each website each day. By the end of September, each website should have 30 articles and by the end of October, each website should be making some money. The problem is that it is August and I still don’t have the HTML completed. I still have 4 websites that need HTML added to the articles – 300 articles in total. It makes it hard to get anything else done in my life when I’m worried about getting this done. I think I’m going to back off with the working out and dieting stuff and spend all my time on these websites. It 2-3 months, maybe sooner, I’ll be done with them and can focus on myself. I’ll still post to-do lists daily but I probably won’t list as much non-work stuff to do. Here is my to-do list for today:

Work

  • Complete HTML for website #10
  • Complete HTML for 2 pages worth of articles for website #8

Nonwork

  • Make supper
  • Get dressed
  • Finish using Flash&Go on legs, arms and face